Roller Coaster

Sorry, this is a little rant... but I need to get it out somewhere, and there are only a few people who read my blog, so enjoy.

Living abroad, especially in a place that doesn't speak English, is really hard. Its an emotional roller coaster. All of our emotions are very exaggerated. One day we're stoked that the Rockies are in the world series, then we're bummed that they lost a game etc. But the thing is, there's no middle ground really.But all our emotions are amplified. It really feels that way. The other night I was on cloud nine after talking to one friend on the phone, 5 min later, I hung up from another phone call and was crying. It's so stupid! I'm never like this at home! Because all the news from the outside world is filtered through the phone, internet etc, we only get one perspective of it, and it's hard to live off of just that. So our minds create another reality, and take whatever news we just received and manipulates it in a strange way. I know this sounds crazy, but that's just how I feel.

I hear news from friends and don't really know how to interpret it all because I dont know the context behind it all, the stories, what's currently going on to make all that happen, etc. It kinda sucks. I just feel like I'm so left out of whats going on at home, and that when I get back, ti's going to be really hard. I'll have to re-immerse myself in social situations that I once knew, and have to recreate again.

I've been talking to my friends about this and they all feel the same way. Its kinda wierd. One friend from CU that went abroad from a year (who's not in Arg now) said it was so hard to come home because all your friends got used to you not being around, and used to not calling you, that when you get home, they're so used to that, that you feel alone and withdrawn from the social culture for a good amount of time cause they still don't call you. I also feel like I have no idea what's going on in the lives of anyone around me. I just feel like I've been completely withdrawn from everyone, and everywhere in the world.... except for the million or so people I live with in Buenos Aires.

*Sigh* Alright, that's it.

I'm not sad. I'm not depressed, sometimes I just get these thoughts, and it helps to write them all down and have others understand. I need to update soon, with Mendoza, Last weekend, elections, chinese food, and my exciting plans for this weekend!! Talk to you soon. Miss you all.